There is nothing special about me, people get bored of me so quick. the only person i feel like i relate to is out of my league and wants nothing to do with me. i’d like to die any day now, i tried searching for happiness but it never existed, moments of joy and the rush of chasing them, that’s all i had. why am i so unlovable? why can’t i even get a hug? i just want to be told i have value, i just want to hold someone close to me and love them, seeing i’ve never loved myself, i just want to love someone.